tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64401272922919519582024-03-05T09:12:04.055-06:00One Day at a TimeThis blog is mostly for me to discuss my life,love and DD journey with my hubby.Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.comBlogger58125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-62142351681459523792011-03-02T14:17:00.002-06:002011-03-02T14:23:03.408-06:00Attitude!! Attitude!! Attitude!!We've been doing the daily's.We had a great evening out together.It was late.I just didn't want a spanking.<br /><br />Shannon announced it was time and ask me to get the spoon.I was like what? Seriously?He said yeah seriousy it's a daily,why not? Well it's late for one.I threw the covers back and got the spoon.It's on my side of the bed in the nightstand so I grabbed it and sorta tossed it in his direction and then walked over to him.He told me to drop my pants and get in position.I told him I didn't think the door was locked.Well then you better go lock it.<br /><br />He started the spanking and said this is your daily when I'm done you can have a spanking for your attitude.What attitude!? The one you have right now and the one you had when you jerked backed the covers,threw the spoon,and stomped to the door.I didn't stomp anywhere and I gave you the spoon the same way I always do.He informed me that I did stomp and that when he ask for an implement he wants it handed to him not thrown.<br /><br />He finished the daily and moved on to the attitude spanking.I'd like to say at that point I was on my best behavior but no! He was asking questions then spanking, asking question ,spanking and everytime the spanking got harder and harder.That's when I stood up arms crossed and said if your just gonna keep spanking me everytime you ask a questions I'm not answering them anymore! It was pretty much down hill from there.<br /><br />When it was over neither of us were very happy with the other.He promised another spanking for the continued attitude and we went to sleep.I felt really bad that I had acted that way when I woke up the next morning.I did text him and apologize.I'm really not sure what got into me.<br /><br />Things are settled now and the attitude is gone for sure.Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-87607926051747901082011-02-11T12:39:00.002-06:002011-02-11T13:04:35.810-06:00UpdateI finally have everyone in the house well at this moment.Woohoo! Shannon is healing nicely and feeling much better these days.He may even go back to full duty sometime soon.It's been nice to have him home on a more normal basis though....we've actually had dinner together which is so important.I know he's ready to get back in the field though and I can't blame him.<br /><br />I told ya'll I'd let you know about the six week excersise if we chose to do it.It's basically six weeks of daily spankings.It's mostly for connection and to open the lines of communication.So far it's done both for us which has been really nice.We will do the six weeks at the least if more than that is needed then we will continue.The only down side is it can be more than one spanking a day and if I earn a spanking I get that plus the daily.We also set time aside for us to do things together just the two of us.<br /><br />I had forgot for some time how spanking is related to my openess to him.We haven't communicated this much in quite some time and it feels good.It has also givin us the chance to see the things we need to work on.I need to work on disrespect..... I need to work on what I say and how I say it.He has things he's working on too.All in all I'd say it's been a good thing.Lets just hope we still feel good about it at week six!<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-11201565683756759432011-02-03T10:27:00.002-06:002011-02-03T11:12:02.334-06:00Tons going onI wasn't expecting it to be so long before I posted.<br /><br />We had houseguest for about five days.Then Shannon fell at work,he was on a thirty something foot cable when some equipment failed.He fell almost thirty feet,stopping a couple feet before he hit the ground.He's been healing from that and we are thankful it wasn't as bad as it could have been.<br /><br />Now we are passing the flu around the house.I think today is the first day I've come up for air!<br /><br />Not much spanking going on here so I thought I'd take this oppertunity to mention <a href="http://groups.yahoo.com/group.Tampatanners/">Tampa tanners</a>.It's a group started by Thomas,Cookie and my good friend Katia.It's a good way to meet like minded people.They are working on getting some pics.They will also have spanking parties in the Tampa area. Check it out!<br /><br />Have a good day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-25671738991503421202011-01-07T14:26:00.004-06:002011-01-07T16:32:00.430-06:00A turning point maybe?Funny and light-hearted are always so easy,but life isn't always that way.<br /><br />I'm going to share something here that I haven't before.I'm sharing it because 1)I feel like we might be at a turning point and I feel good about it.2)I would appreciate ya'll in our corner;)You've all been so good to me.3) there will probably be bad days and instead of hiding I'd like to be able to be honest.4)There isn't as much help for this sorta thing as you may think<br /><br />The short version is....I found out a few years ago that my guy had a gambling problem.I was shocked although I'm not sure why, the signs were all there.I thought ok I can deal with this we've dealt with other things.It didn't really work out that way.We are still sitting here three years later trying to figure this all out.There have been many ups and downs,goods and bads.Now I just want our life back!<br /><br /><br />At first we set DD aside,then brought it back,we let it go again and so on....<br /><br />The past few months we haven't really communicated or been connected. I didn't want DD anymore. My heart just wasn't in it.I felt it was more hurtful than helpful.Shannon felt we needed it.When he attempted it I made it really difficult.I'm not proud of that.He also has struggled with guilt and not feeling worthy of being HOH.My being difficult just made it that much harder for him.At times he felt it wasn't worth the fight with me.Things were getting ugly. We both stopped trying and avoided each other.Other than a few occasions when things felt somewhat normal.<br /><br />Recently we had a heart to heart....One of those lay it out on the table even if it's hard kinda talks.It wasn't fun but it was needed.During our talk we were able to share a lot of things that have never been mentioned. I realized some things about myself that I'm not happy with.One thing we both agreed is our family and marriage are to important to let go of.One thing I was shocked by is how most of our issues are not the gambling itself but all the little 'side effects' of the gambling.That may not makes sense to everyone.<br /><br />One day at a time and one foot in front of the other....we will get there though.<br /><br />One of the things I realized about myself is that I'm angry and I'm bitter and it's not helpful in moving forward.It's easy to sit back and feel like he should fix it because he messed it up.It doesn't work that way we both have to do the work and neither of us have been doing our part.<br /><br />The trust and respect are damaged,not gone just damaged.I know most agree that trust and respect are very important to DD and I agree.I also think sometimes things are not normal and you have to reach outside the box for answers.With that said we agreed that DD will be here because honestly it just has to be.DD is a big part of our lives and it's helped us keep our heads above water many times.Without it our communication and connection go away and now is not the time for that.<br /><br />The good part is everything is out in the open for us now and we can fix what needs fixin.How to fix it is the hard part.We know we need to talk and keep talking even when it hurts sometimes and I think finally we are both ready to do that.We've spent alot of time dancing around some of the real issues.<br /><br />There has been some talk on a forum we are apart of about a six week excersise.We are doing a trial run of that so we can tweak what needs tweaking and see if it might be beneficial for us.It's mostly a connection thing for us.I'll give more info about it if we decide that it might be for us.<br /><br />I want to end by saying Shannon's made a lot of progress with the gambling and I'm very proud of him.Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-69791941597598365532010-12-14T09:40:00.002-06:002010-12-14T09:53:11.390-06:00Does it work for you?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdixPKpQpj9Sa93XQk0PZTWBgYQHGiGSf-cA8MDzaEYXw23PMd-nH3-0RXtS7I7qhzFFE-CvQoD9PZkAPhQyt_jXuU_YloFmlp6TjqA55Tma05J01ccD5S0aYstU-mzlar9AJzkAlI1us/s1600/038.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdixPKpQpj9Sa93XQk0PZTWBgYQHGiGSf-cA8MDzaEYXw23PMd-nH3-0RXtS7I7qhzFFE-CvQoD9PZkAPhQyt_jXuU_YloFmlp6TjqA55Tma05J01ccD5S0aYstU-mzlar9AJzkAlI1us/s320/038.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5550563872852773906" /></a><br /><br /> I'd like to say I never pout,but that wouldn't be the truth.I don't do it often.Sometimes it works and mostly it doesn't.;)<br /><br />Do you do it? <br /><br />Does it really work?<br /><br /><br />Have a great day everyone!!!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-42392710310118466112010-12-08T09:54:00.002-06:002010-12-08T10:16:39.265-06:00Just for fun!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKuOQhN8K1quCATL0hfqU3ofVivBPEWxY7mTRnOpvA95oR61BOo4bby4okQXJK-c7qUgwdFRmK2a-YyStMzi-dk4ZhafwfmzbJ8YYB0eyCDJ-nlP0A9uae6BkjIVLiK7wF_TrOQewzysU/s1600/035.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKuOQhN8K1quCATL0hfqU3ofVivBPEWxY7mTRnOpvA95oR61BOo4bby4okQXJK-c7qUgwdFRmK2a-YyStMzi-dk4ZhafwfmzbJ8YYB0eyCDJ-nlP0A9uae6BkjIVLiK7wF_TrOQewzysU/s320/035.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5548340819550401778" /></a><br /><br /><br />I have been busy lately,but I don't want to neglect my blog any longer.I found some cute finds recently while we were out of town.My goal is to post the pictures of those finds with just a short question or comment to go along with it.<br /><br />So here goes....<br /><br />What get's you on the naughty list the quickest or most often? Anyone want to share?<br /><br />For me it would have to be attitude.I get my feelings hurt or something and snap without thinking it through.It's the one thing Shannon say's he will still be spanking me for at 80 LOL! I have got tons better at it over the years though,so maybe there is still hope.<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!!!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-33598491875912070522010-11-17T11:04:00.002-06:002010-11-17T13:22:14.993-06:00Sometimes you just don't wanna.There was a coversation elsewhere recently about how hard it can be once DD becomes apart of a relationship.It wasn't exacty that, but close.Either way I could relate to it,as I think a lot of us can.So I thought I'd ramble.<br /><br />As helpful as DD can be,sometimes you just don't wanna.I remember in our earlier years of marriage spankings only happened about 4 times a year.Neither one of us was sure spanking was normal or healthy for a marriage so Shannon reserved it for pretty major things.Once we got a look at the internet and found out that it was more normal than we thought things changed.Spankings happened more frequently and I got spanked for things that I didn't before.Another big change for us was submission.In our early years even though Shannon was the HOH and spanked,submissive I was not!Actually I'm still not,but it can be our little secret.;)<br /><br />When things first started to change it wasn't so bad.It was new and instantly there were some pretty amazing changes going on.There was an openess,we communicated better.The better communication brought about closeness and that did amazing things for our sex life.I guess those changes made it seem not so bad.<br /><br />At some point things settle down and DD is there....ALL THE TIME!!It's not new anymore either and it's just really hard.Spankings happen in times and moments when you just don't feel like it.You also realize that when they say they are going to spank if you do x,they really mean every single time you do it!Who would have thunk it?<br /><br />The good thing about this very difficult,overwhelming time for me was major growth happened and I ended up in a pretty good place.Unless of course we are working on something like ummm lets just say,smoking. Then overwhelming feelings come back and you feel like destroying every implement he owns,but you know it will pass;)<br /><br />Have a good day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-87927028578636572332010-11-14T08:51:00.002-06:002010-11-14T08:55:08.865-06:00Wanted to shareI still can't seem to write anything.So until then I thought I'd share the song below.It's one of my favs and it really speaks to me these days.<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-40167081623769561012010-11-14T08:46:00.000-06:002010-11-14T08:46:44.919-06:00Cristy Lane - He Sees My Heart<object style="background-image:url(http://i1.ytimg.com/vi/d2Mu4YvJ8rc/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/d2Mu4YvJ8rc?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/d2Mu4YvJ8rc?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-70548635315565295872010-10-27T10:42:00.011-05:002010-10-27T13:00:02.208-05:00Not totally innocent,but not completely guilty either.Yesterday I woke up ready to tackle the day.I even remembered the trash before the trash guys came.I had nothing but good intentions.Why or how it went so wrong I don't know.It seems every choice I made was the wrong one.I'm not saying I'm totally innocent I know I did things wrong....It's just that I didn't mean to. <br /><br />Tuesday is the night that a few of us get together and chat.I don't always get to go,but when I do it's a lot of fun.I cleaned all day and made an easy dinner so that I could make chat no problem.Later in the evening Shannon ask to see my journal and my pack of smokes.Nothing about what he saw made him happy.He shot me a look,but said nothing.A little later I mentioned it was chat night.He said "you didn't log all your cigarettes you don't get to chat." I was like wha??? You didn't tell me that?? I was a tad upset and decided to text with a friend for awhile(like 2 hours yikes!)<br /><br />Next thing I know Shannon says "Do you think you can put your phone down long enough to take a bath?" I said yes I can put my phone down long enough to take bath and I giggled...Ok so I was clueless to the big flashing neon sign that said he was pissed.We get to the bath and he ask if there is a reason I'd been ignoring him for the last two hours.I told him I hadn't been ignoring him,or at least I didn't mean to if I had.He didn't agree, he said I was pissed that I couldn't chat so I ignored him and I would have to give up my phone for the night and think about why I ignored him.Well.....yes I was pissed and yes I could see why he saw it the way he did.Did I ignore him on purpose? No.I made sure to talk to him as the evening went on and we got things ready for bed.<br /><br />I knew I'd be spanked for not journaling and missing the goal.He was holding the wooden spoon and said "I told you to journal your cigarettes and you can't seem to do that.I spanked you for it last night and I'm not telling you anymore.If you don't journal you get spanked it's that simple." He wasn't messing around and he let me have it! I thought for sure it was for not journaling AND for missing the goal.When he was done he told me to wait right there and he left.When he came back he had the huge paddle.(the flea market find,the decorated one the one we drilled holes in ugh!)I spent a few minutes backed up to the wall refusing to get in position and earning extra as he counted.Yeah not exactly my smartest move I know,but I did eventually get my wits about me and take the spanking.When it was over I slid down on the floor pretty sure I had taken the last swat that I could take.He left again,I figured he was giving me some space to collect myself like he often does.Ummmm no! I hear the jingle of his belt buckle and he tells me to stand up and bend back over.He says "If you are upset with me or I've done something you need to talk to me.Your not going to ignore me because your mad I won't put up with it." <br /><br /><br />I was a snowball and he was the tree at the bottom of the hill......Today will be better right?Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-17234386396879727762010-10-26T10:41:00.004-05:002010-10-26T11:22:11.438-05:00Communication blockAuthors get writers block.... I'm having a communication block.I have started so many post in the last month or so and then just never felt confident enough to hit the button that puts it out there.Same thing with normal everyday conversation I just don't know what to say at all these days unless it's about normal day to day stuff.My communication with Shannon has been the same. I can't communicate the things I need or want to.I have no clue why I'm having this problem,but it's rather annoying.So bare with me and if you have any suggestions that would be great.<br /><br />We had another wonderful weekend.I'm a huge music fan..like huge huge lol! Mostly country music, old and new.So Shannon got tickets to a concert for our date night.I was totally excited!Friday evening he came home with beautiful flowers. We got dressed and headed out for the concert.It was amazing and we had the best time.Saturday we took our three kids and six others to the haunted corn maze.I'm not really into scary stuff,but I had my sexy guy to protect me and the kids just loved it.Sunday we sent all extra kids home and enjoyed watching some football.<br /><br />Later that night as I was heading to bed Shannon asked me to pick an implement.I was getting a choice so I figured it was going to be a GG.I picked the crop,it's the only thing that can be gentle in my opinion.It turns out I had to trade it in for something less noisy.I picked the OTK cane and made him promise to be gentle, which he was.It was a really nice way to end such a wonderful weekend.I really love these kinda weekends they don't happen nearly as often as I like.<br /><br />I don't feel like discussing smoking today so no update.<br /><br />I hope ya'll have a wonderful day!!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-61967929407863275062010-10-21T13:12:00.002-05:002010-10-21T13:50:09.483-05:00Love Our Lurkers DayThis is my first time to participate in the "Love our Lurkers" that Bonnie started five years ago.<br /><br />It's a day for us to say 'thank you' to all our readers.I was a lurker for several years,I wasn't sure about commenting.I finally did it and have met so many wonderful people. You don't have to be bashful lurkers, I would love to hear from you! You can share whatever you like or a simple hello is just fine :)Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-12030898961315774742010-10-18T12:51:00.002-05:002010-10-18T13:04:54.580-05:00A great weekend!We had a wonderful weekend.Shannon's been working like crazy and we were really needing some time together.He got an unexpected weekend off,no jobs called out.The kids all had friends over,we watched scary movies and put up halloween decoration.My son did most the work on the roof while the rest of us did the ones on the ground.Several people drove by to look and would tell us how nice it looked or give us the thumbs up.<br /><br />Later that evening the kids set off the fog machines(neither my lungs,nor my asthma appreciated that)and the strobe lights and we all played sardines.Thankfully Shannon was home or I wouldn't have been able to sleep a wink.<br /><br />Sunday we all camped out in front of the t.v. to watch football.My Boys lost,but it was still tons of fun to have a football day!<br /><br />The kids only go to school two days this week then they are off for fall break.I'm so excited about having them home for awhile!I'm sure they will have friends over and will be going over to their friends,but it should be a nice break for all of us.<br /><br />Smoking update:I'm doing really good down to eight and I think seven tomorrow.Slowly but surely it's getting easier.I notive myself lighting up taking a few puffs and putting it down.That's really good,eventually it won't be worth my time anymore.Thank ya'll for all the encouragement!<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-49038449705630068322010-10-12T09:41:00.003-05:002010-10-12T11:08:27.466-05:00"Read my lips:NO MORE WOOD"Shannon and I went to a flea market a few weeks ago and he found a big wood paddle.We walked through the flea market holding hands while he carried that darn thing.I noticed people didn't give him weird looks,it was me then were looking at!I was so happy when I finally talked him into taking it to the car.<br /><br />We picked Katia up from the airport Thursday morning and almost immediatly after getting home Shannon decided to test all his weapons out on us.Shannon had told me a few days before she was due to arrive that all spankings would be playful.We don't do many playful spankings and he thought with the two of us to laugh and cut up with one another I might enjoy it a tad more.The first spanking was fun! On Friday we were in there darn near on the hour,still it was fun.That darn paddle made an appearance in every spanking....Have I ever mentioned I'm not a fan of wood? We all walked to the corner cafe for some lunch...that's when the soreness set in!!<br /><br />Katia,who has buns of steel or something thought she'd help me out.She told me to just keep repeating to myself..."It doesn't hurt." My brain didn't by into that though.Then she tells me to just keep talking to her as if we were having a normal conversation.Ummm yeah! I managed to get like three words out.lol<br /><br />Shannon thought it would be a good idea to give us ten swats each,but have us work as a team to take them.In other words if he had to start over because one of us got out of position or put our hands back we would both start over.Poor Katia,I'm not the person you want on your team in this case.She was the cause of us started over a couple times though.After several hours and several spankings Shannon decided on one last spanking of the evening.I think it was the second swat with the wood paddle and I was done I said "Read my lips:NO MORE WOOD!" Thankfully he was nice enough to change to leather.<br /><br />Saturday we went to a pumkin festival and another flea market.We had fun just hanging out all day.Shannon did find a really unique implement at the flea market.I'll try an post a pic of it and the paddle when I get a chance.Katia got me the prettiest small crystal picture to hold my milk for coffee.I have been been hunting the pefect thing for awhile now,it's perfect!!<br /><br />We couldn't let the weekend slip by without one last prank on my guy.So....we drilled holes in his paddle.We were very careful,we didn't want to mess it up.He wasn't so pleased with us at first,but once he realized we didn't go crazy with it and we were careful he settled down.He did give us a spanking with it later that night and it turns out he liked the holes lol! <br /><br />It was a fun weekend and I miss her already!!<br /><br />As far as smoking goes,I've done pretty good.I'm down to 9 smokes and the journaling and logging the cigs really has helped me.Katia,gave me a pretty little notebook to log in with inspirational quotes at the top of each page,she cut each one out herself just for me.Thank you,Katia!<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-52415722449048470742010-10-03T08:30:00.003-05:002010-10-03T08:58:08.613-05:00A visit from a friendKatia is coming for a visit,I'm so excited!!! I've missed her so much.We always have loads of fun together just hanging out and talking.We always manage to play some kind of joke on Shannon cause it's just to good to pass up lol!<br /><br />I'm doing better with the smoking goals after having a really tough time meeting them.Shannon came to me a few days ago paddle in hand and said "I'm done with you not meeting your goals".I wasn't feeling so hot that day and it wasn't a fun spanking at all. I remember waking up still over his knee and him asking me to take a nap with him.When we woke up he told me he wanted me to start journaling every time I light up.That hasn't been an easy task but it does seem to be heping.So far I've made every goal!<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-78086202247214970262010-09-27T23:07:00.002-05:002010-09-27T23:26:07.540-05:00goals, goals and more goals!I'm really struggling with the smoking goals.I made the first two,missed two,made two more.....<br /><br />Today I missed it.I was very tempted to sneak some smokes,because I know Shannon won't understand.How can he? I don't understand.One day I have two left over the next day I go over by two.It only takes a bad hour in a day to mess up the whole thing at that point I feel defeated or as if I'm a step behind all day.I wish there was an easier way to do this.<br /><br />Tomorrow is a new day though and I WILL meet my goal.<br /><br />Have a good night everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-61534795761928766672010-09-22T18:39:00.002-05:002010-09-22T19:19:30.529-05:00I don't like it here.I'm going to vent for a sec. I don't know what my problem is with this move.The people here are nice.I can walk to the store and I love that!I just don't like it....it's not home.It doesn't have things that are important to us in a house.The kids don't like the new school.K has always been an A/B student and now she is struggling.I'm usually good with this stuff,I was an Army brat we moved all the time.When we moved somewhere we weren't sure of we made the best of it.I'm trying I really am,but it's hard.I think it's mostly just the house,hopefully I can change it enough to make it feel like home.We are going to all the homecoming events for the town we moved from because our oldest still goes to school there.The two younger ones will get to see their friends...I think it will be good for all of us.Ok I'm done venting. :)<br /><br />I made my cigarette goal yesterday it wasn't easy though.I did get a reminder in the evening to make sure I reached the goal.I actually think that helped or maybe it was the threat of a wood paddle or switch that terrified me either way something worked.I realized later last night while chatting that I only had one smoke left. If there was going to be any 'special time' I would need to save that smoke.I left chat and went to hunt down my guy.I find him on the computer doing paperwork,he said he'd be done in awhile.AWHILE I have one cig left mind you.I explain to him that I left chat to head to bed and I was saving the last cig for after 'special time'so could I have one extra since I was waiting on him to do paperwork.I was like a kid begging for 15 more minutes to watch a show before bed, it was pretty ridiculous.lol! He didn't go for it and I ended up saving just half.I made the goal though and it felt really good!!<br /><br />Have a great evening everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-74728782336714196132010-09-21T09:01:00.002-05:002010-09-21T10:06:06.828-05:00We finally talked.Shannon and I are usually pretty good at sticking together when things are crazy.This time we didn't.He was busy working I was busy moving and taking care of everything that goes with that.We were two people with two different list of things to do that never seemed to end.Right about the time things were slowing down and we remembered there is an 'us' there were the two funerals.<br /><br />We did have twelve hours of driving alone with no kids in the truck on our way to the second funeral.We briefly discussed what we thought went wrong and some issues that hadn't really been talked about.We focused more on how to get back where we need to be rather than how we got where we were.The biggest part of our talk was about our lack of communication and how to better communicate when we do.It was all positive for the most part.Other than one thing that I knew he wasn't happy about,but I had no clue just how unhappy he was with it.It's my need to always have a say in when, where, and how he spanks.Am I guilty? Yes.I never thought much about it because it's not like my complaints or opinions change how he does things...in the end he always does things when, where, and how he wants.He wins!He agreed that they don't change things but he'd rather not feel as though he's dragging me into every spanking kicking and screamin.Not that it really ever happens that way.I get where he's coming from though and I will work at that.<br /><br />I was chatting with some ladies last week about the smoking thing.They actually scared me a bit with some stories,but in this case fear is good!One of the things that always slows me down is the weight gain that comes with quitting.One of the ladies offered to send a workout video and I'm excited about starting that.I gave myself some goals on my own.I made one and that was it.Shannon waited in the background to see how I did on my own.I wasn't really aware he was watching until he started asking tons of question everyday.He decided I needed his 'help' with this.I don't get a say in how he chooses to help.We both agreed I had too much say last time.<br />I'm excited to have a plan,that always works better than 'I'm working on it'.I have the video,meds if I need them,and a goal!<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-47304322324120895882010-09-13T11:25:00.002-05:002010-09-13T12:55:52.884-05:00Not on the same wavelength!I'm pretty sure we are on two entirely different planets at this point....<br /><br />I really don't like sharing these times and prefer to share the positive stuff.The truth is it isn't always warm and fuzzy.*sigh* There was a disagreement and hurtful things were said.WARNING!! this won't make either of us look all that great but it is what it is.<br /><br />It started over him being grouchy, then I was grouchy.Truthfully I think we were both stressed.I said that I felt like he shouldn't spank me for being grouchy if he was grouchy.That pretty much set him off and I got the whole lecture about how I don't decide those things and so on.When he finished his lecture I decided to say you haven't spanked in however long and now your ready to be all roar!That led to a debate about whether there were or were not available opportunities.Just between you and I.. there were opportunities.Like I said hurtful things were said.I mentioned to him that I wasn't sure how I felt about DD and that sometimes it seems more hurtful than helpful.We agreed that changes needed to be made,because it shouldn't be that way.He was clear that DD wasn't going anywhere though.So,I basically said fine,but I don't feel the need to discuss it or give an opinion about it anymore.He said that was fine but it wouldn't stop him from spanking.Let me just pause to yell.....UGH!!!<br /><br />That was the short version trust me no one wants to hear the long version.Looking back I know that things got out of hand really quickly and most of this could have been prevented.I also know that DD has helped with so many things in our marriage.Even disaggreements as suprising as that may seem,but we still have a lot of work to do in this area.A lot of what was said was silly and pointless and other things were how we really feel.<br /><br /> I'm not giving my opinion on DD issues and he is continuing to spank.I think he feels he has a point to make..only I'm clueless about what that could be.He has spanked every chance he's got.That makes me think he's boiling over the fact that I said there were opportunities and he felt there weren't.He's also spanked with determination,about what? I don't know.Could it be that he is making his point that I don't make those decisions?He's changed other things about the spankings too,that I don't fully understand,or agree with or like for that matter.<br /><br />Obviously there are some unsettled issues.I just wish he'd talk to me about them.If he feels he needs to make a point,I'm ok with that.I just think it makes more sense for me to know and understand the point he's trying to make.Otherwise it just adds hurt in an already hurtful situation.Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-69499822192730690642010-09-12T09:58:00.002-05:002010-09-12T10:13:54.243-05:00My apologies...We finally got all moved! We still have tons of unpacking to do though.I never thought to post and say I'd be without internet,because it was only supose to be a couple days.Let's just say it was forever!!!! I'm still not sure I'm even happy with the internet service we are getting.UGH!I apologize for disappearing.<br /><br />Shannon's grandfather passed away while I was out of touch.We were out of town for a few very stressful days.<br /><br />The whole entire move was stressful.Shannon worked through most of it so that left me and the kids to do a lot of it.Getting stuff turned on was difficult too...you would think we lived in the boondocks!<br /><br />Now that the hard part is over I'm hopeful I can post on a more regular basis.I've missed everyones blogs and hope to do some catching up this week!The smoking still isn't going well,but things are settling down(I hope)so maybe now I can put some effort into that.<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-81883955309799537062010-08-19T12:44:00.002-05:002010-08-19T13:00:22.172-05:00The smoking thing.I have had a few people ask about how the smoking is going, so I thought I'd post it here.<br /><br />Well......It's not going.I think I was at about half a pack last time I updated.I'm no where close to that now.I really don't know what to say other than things got crazy and I stopped trying.<br /><br />I was chatting with a friend today who told me I use stress as an excuse to smoke.It's true I do,it helps with so many things actually. I know I need to find another way to deal with stressful things and I'm going to work on that.I can't say that I'm going to quit right now,but I'm going to work on cutting back.<br /><br />So that's what's going on with it.*sigh*<br /><br />Have a great day!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-52791537811733202092010-08-18T20:16:00.002-05:002010-08-18T20:45:07.745-05:00I should have said something.Communication isn't always easy.Sometimes you need to say something.You know you should ,but.....<br /><br />What if it creates tension?<br />What if your timing is off?<br />What if there just isn't enough time?<br />Etc.......<br /><br />Shannon did something that hurt my feelings.I know it wasn't intentional and I knew I needed to tell him.It's just that the time never came where I felt comfortable.Then he did something small that irritated me and 'I pounced like a tiger'(those were his words).<br /><br />He's been giving these little morning spankings,nothing serious,more playful than anything.So I wasn't shocked when he announced a spanking this morning.I knew I was in trouble though the moment he said 'now that I have you here'.He of course wanted to know why I pounced.I told him and he understood.He wasn't happy that there was something 'wrong' and I didn't talk to him though.He reminded me again how important it is that we communicate with one another.He also reminded me that pouncing is not acceptable.<br /><br />Communicating would have hurt us both a lot less.I need to work on this one it's were I struggle the most.<br /><br />Have a great night everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-4451131947414948292010-08-16T20:14:00.002-05:002010-08-16T20:24:35.604-05:00Gotta love a hot bath!Every night that Shannon is home he takes a bath with me and every night he complains about how hot the water is.Tonight he got in and said "your getting a spanking tonight".I was like why? "Because the waters is so darn hot!" I laughed because I knew he was teasing.He said he was going to make my butt as hot as the water was.lol!I love that he takes a bath with me so maybe I could compromise on the water just a little!<br /><br />Have a great evening everyone!!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-73386150291882625292010-08-12T11:25:00.002-05:002010-08-12T11:40:41.139-05:00First day of school!Today is the first day of school!!! I'm excited for the new year and the start of the school football season.I'll be complaining while i'm running like crazy though lol!Our oldest drove to school this morning....that will give you gray hair's for sure!!<br /><br />Most of all I'm just ready for the routine of things.I need routine!The school year also gives Shannon and I more time together,I love that part!He's been putting in a lot of hours at work so I haven't seen him much.I did get to spend some time with him this morning even if it was OTK *wink*He asked me a few days ago to go to the post office,but I was busy and forgot to go.....<br /><br />He was really funny this morning though,I think it's due to his lack of sleep.*smiles* As he's spanking he says "Do you know why you should have went to the PO?" And then he answers himself.Because I asked you to, right?"Do you know why else you should have went?" He answers himself again.Because if you don't you end up in this position.Then he says AH HA!... Are you having an ah ha moment yet?... Say it with me ah ha!I was laughing too hard to answer,but I was definantly having an ah ha moment.I'm not sure it was the one he wanted though.<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!!!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6440127292291951958.post-82891358771012462872010-08-03T08:02:00.002-05:002010-08-03T08:19:57.967-05:00The houseEverything is moving forward with the house.Shannon and the kids are totally excited! I have concerns though.<br /><br />This isn't just a house and anyone who knows Shannon and I wouldn't be suprised lol!It's an old doctor's office actually.It was built in 1939 and over the years they have made it a house.So my biggest concerns are:The roof,the plumbing,the electric.It's also over 2600 sq ft.it has two a/c units so I worry about the electric bill being crazy!It's perfect in so many ways though.I'm not sure if I'm just worried because it's a big decision or if I'm worried for a reason.ugh!<br /><br />Shannon and I have talked since I last posted and things are better.We still have some things to work out but at least we are communicating and that's more that we were doing before.<br /><br />Have a great day everyone!Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04847681554093063077noreply@blogger.com0