Ups and downs

Marriage is not without it's ups and downs and we had a down for sure.Not anything I care to talk about.I will say that I'm shocked sometimes by how we deal with downs the longer we are married.I can remember many moons ago when we'd go days without speaking because one of us said something to hurt the others feelings.I think about what a waste of time that was lol!That's not to say things are always peachy but we can at least carry on like two adults during our downs and I like that.I like that even during a down time we are still a team.I don't know I guess these kind of things are reassuring to me.

Shannon decided a reconnection was in order.I was really needing that when he first announced it but givin the circumstances we decided to wait a few days.By the time we got around to it I wasn't feeling all that disconnected but I could tell he still very much needed the spanking to happen so I didn't fuss....well not until it started anyway lol! Shannon had cut his finger while we were doing our flower bed and it opened up again while he was spanking and wouldn't stop bleeding.He decided to use the american tawse rather than bleed all over me;)

I swear the longer we own that thing the worse it gets!!! After just a few swats I was like ok wait! Stop!That thing is broke! He was like what do you mean broke? Like it hurts way worse than normal its all flappy.He laughs and says flappy? You mean it's broke in? Yea whatever it's broke! He pretty much ignored me and my pleas after that lol! Then later he's talking to me and ask his question "why do we do this,Misty?" Ummm because when your not actually DOING it it somehow seems like a good idea.He laughed at me and said no I can't accept that I need another answer.I finally gave him the answer he would accept but just between us.......the first answer WAS true lol!

We had a great weekend together.Shannon actually got some much needed time off.The kids kept us crazy busy with all their plans but all in all it was fun.I got some pretty flowers for Mother's day and a few homemade posters and such that I loved!!!

This is the last full week of school left and no doubt it will be a busy one it always is!J is doing some extra tutoring to be sure his grades are all good.I'm proud of him for even thinking of it,he's definantly matured this year.K ended up choosing cheer rather than softball.I'm not suprised lol! She will be working her butt off to try an make the team.I so hope she does because she will be so disappointed if not and I don't want that.T seems to have all her ducks in a row and ready to finish out the school year.

Hope everyone had a wonderful Mother's day!!!

My guy is home!!!!

I'm so totally happy!! Shannon came home yesterday and he took me out on a nice date.He was supose be gone 4 days but that turned into a full week!I was unprepared lol!We had a great time together just catching up and some chit chat.He had already mentioned giving me a spanking just for connection and some maintenance.With his new work schedule he's been doing alot of morning spankings which I don't really care for...there isn't enough coffee to prepare for that lol!Anyway last night on our way home from our date he says I'm gonna spank you tonight because I need to be at work early and I don't wanna rush things in the morning.I was shocked but I saw his point and besides did I mention I don't like morning spankings;)So he goes to 'our' spot,well one of them the other is the lake.He gets the spanking going telling me he was glad that I was good while he was gone and how happy he was that the spanking wasn't a punishment.Then he starts teasing me about how virgin my bottom got in just one week lol! He was totally in to this spanking and I had to remind him a few times that I was attached to the bottom he was spanking!It was nice though and it served it's purpose.He did throw me a twist near the end.I said in my earlier post that we were no longer 'working' on my smoking and that took alot of convincing to get him to agree to.I have kinda felt like he wasn't totally on board with it but he's kept his comments to a minimal.Until yesterday while he was spanking at which point he says now that I have your attention I want to talk to you about something.I won't harp on it cause I said I wouldn't but you haven't done so good with your cigarettes and June 1st is right around the corner so I need you to work harder on that.He gave some really ouchie swats to make his point and then winded things down.I know he's right I do need to work harder on it.I've sorta went crazy since we agreed it was off the table and I'm only hurting myself by doing that.Anyway heading out to catch a lunch date my my guy yippee!!!!

Ok we will just say I suck at blogging and move on :)

I won't make excuses or say I will do better...cause well that's probably not true lol!

We have had alot of company the past few months.My sister came up for a week and that was fun.We discuss that it will probably be the last year we do spring break together because the kids are getting older and it's just hard.They all have their things they are into and the two older kids will have jobs soon.We will still visit each other when we can though.

My good friend,Katia(a fellow DD'er) came to visit us...it was a blast and thanks to the Oklahoma weather we actually got a couple extra days together.Of course we were angels the entire time!!!! Ok maybe not the entire time;) We tried real hard so that's gotta count for something right?

My cousin and friend came down about a week ago.We weren't really expecting them to come till last minute so we didn't have much planned but it was still fun.

We are trying to plan a trip to Branson soon.I'm not sure how easy that will be considering they tok Shannon's days off away and his hours have really been slim.I'm enjoying him being home on a more regular basis though.

The kids school years in coming to a close soon...where did the year go? J is finishing up track,which he totally loves! I never really pictured him as a track kid,but I'm so glad he is enjoying it.K is trying to decide between softball and cheerleading.I would like to see her do softball I think she would be great at it but I think her hearts in cheer.I'll support her either way.I'm trying to get T to play softball as well it's not looking so good but I'll keep my fingers crossed :)

I was hoping next time I posted I would have quit smoking but no such luck.UGH! We are not making it a DD issue at the moment thank goodness!! We will start again June 1st.I needed a break. It just became this nasty issue between Shannon and I.It was like everything was going so wonderful but then there was the smoking issue.I needed the big nasty cloud NOT hanging over my head for a bit.He wasn't to comfy with the idea and it took lots of talking,but eventually he got where I was coming from.He's really hateing it though I can tell.People that smoke get it a tad better than those who don't.I use my smokes for everything if I'm tired,hungry,upset,sick....whatever so it's tough to let them go.I know that I should though and yes I know all the nasty stuff associated with it;) My job now is to get to that place of really wanting to quit by June 1st.That's all I'll say about that for now.

I'm getting ready to start my garden which I'm totally excited about and if the weather would work with me a bit I'd have already started lol!I have also finally got all the rescue dogs a good home and now we are down to just 'ours' I can't tell you how nice that is.It's time to get busy with some spring cleaning! This would be a good week for it because Shannon's out of town for a few days,but the kids have tons going on and the weather sucks.

I've been busy!

I didn't realize it had been so long geez! I was sick for a couple weeks and that really threw things off.

I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving.I cooked and our neighbor joined us.After the neighbors left we sat around in our 'fat clothes' and watched football and played a few family games it was really nice.I was just glad Shannon got to spend the day with us we weren't sure he'd even be home.I also enjoyed having the kids home.I can't wait for their Christmas break....or summer for that matter lol!

Friday morning Shannon got called out for a job so I did some shopping alone.We usually do it together and I prefer it that way.I didn't venture too far and got back home around noon.I usually put up the tree the first weekend in December but the kids couldn't wait this year so as soon as I got home we put it up.Josh and I had already got a huge jumpstart on the lights so we finished those too.Now we just need to get a few yard ornaments put out and we're done woohoo!

J has basketball practice at 6am all week...I'm not enjoying being up at the butt crack of dawn.I have to have J there at 6 then come home and take K for her practice at 7am.I think I'd prefer after school practice again.K's first game is next week and I can't wait!We thought J was having a week long tournament but they took the 7th and 8th grade out of it...:(

I started my Chantix today!!! The smoking thing has been going pretty good I had a couple days that I didn't meet my goal but by the time Shannon came home I was sick and by the time I was well it had been way to long to deal with it.Getting sick helped me to smoke alot less and so far so good.I'm down to about 6-8 a day which is good compared to when I started.All that was done pre-meds so it should get better from here.I'm sure I'll start feeling like crap when the meds get in my system and I hate that part.In the end it will be worth it though:)

Misty