I met my first goal!!!

My first goal was to take two cigarettes out of the pack I opened and still have it last at least 24 hours.I can't say I blew past the goal,but I did make it!

Last night we had the house to ourselves,that doesn't happen often.Our two youngest are staying a couple weeks with my sister and our oldest stayed the night with a friend.We had a lovely dinner alone, great conversation,a 'good girl' spanking(I'll get to that soon) and some pretty amazing other stuff.

During our conversation and dinner he informed me that he wanted to do reminders to help me with the smoking.He also said that sometimes the reminders would be in the form of a gg.Ok so for those of you who don't know,we have tried gg's a few times with only about a 5 percent success rate.Spankings are spankings and they hurt,so I struggled to find them yummy in any way, shape, form or fashion.lol! However,this is something we would like to get more familiar with.He tells me to go through his arsenal and pick out implements I thought could be 'nice'. I picked two crops,they've always seemed somewhat sexy to me.Turns out I was right,they are sexy!He picked a few too at some point,but I have no idea what they were.All I can say is the gg was 100% successful...WOW! This could be HUGE for us!!!

My next goal is to take 3 cigarettes out of my pack and it still last 24 hours.I'm feeling pretty confident I can make the goal. :)

Have a great day everyone!

The embarrasment never goes away

It amazes me that no matter how long we do this a certain degree of embarrasment is always there.It's just a matter of to what degree and for me that changes.Last night we had a reconnection of sorts.I was beyond embarrassed afterwards.We were at the point when it was over and we were just talking.I was quiet and I think he was feeling that something was wrong and maybe he should continue.I was telling myself to just say something so he'd know that continuing wasn't necessary.It wasn't long before he caught on and asked "Are you embarrassed?" He acted kinda shocked lol! Then he told me not to be and that this is what we do and there is nothing to be embarrassed about.I felt better,but somehow I don't think it will stop me from being embarrassed in the future.Oh well it comes with the territory,I guess.

As far as the smoking...I've been doing better and making some changes on my own.I really like KayLynn's advice and decided to do that.Right now I'm just going to be writing down the times I resist and then I'll gradually change that.I also decided to have a certain spot that I smoke in.That doesn't seem like much but it does help.As of right now Shannon is just asking that I write down everytime I open a pack.The first time was horrible but it has slowly got better.I'm also taking Sugaranne's advice of enjoying the small goals.So baby steps,but I'm feeling good about it.

Have a great day everyone!

My apologies

I'm sorry to anyone who visited and could get on the blog.I had the settings right but didn't reboot.So now it's out there...I know nothing about computers:)Thanks to Katia for helping me fix the problem!

Misty

It's time!!!

Shannon left for work yesterday morning and got home around 11p.m.He had to be back up at 3a.m.You would think the only thing on his mind would be sleep.Instead after he crawled in bed he ask "Do you know what today is?" I was like no what is it? He tells me that it's June 1st and that my time was up and now it's his.He said nothing else about it after that.

A month or so ago he gave me time to work on my smoking on my own with the agreement that June 1st he'd step in.To be honest I haven't made any progress on my own.Of course it would be a crazy stressful month which didn't help matters.He called this morning to tell me to keep track of how many I'm smoking.I'm thinking this isn't going to be good.I'm sure sometime soon he will fill me in and make some small goals(hopefully they are small!)I plan to post the goals and whether or not I meet them.

In other news I decided to share my blog rather than keep it private.It's scary but I thought why not? Mostly I know there has to be a few people out there who have used DD where smoking or something like it is concerned.I would love any advice I could get.Also maybe down the road my journey with DD and smoking could help someone else.

Have a great day everyone!!