I'm really struggling with the smoking goals.I made the first two,missed two,made two more.....
Today I missed it.I was very tempted to sneak some smokes,because I know Shannon won't understand.How can he? I don't understand.One day I have two left over the next day I go over by two.It only takes a bad hour in a day to mess up the whole thing at that point I feel defeated or as if I'm a step behind all day.I wish there was an easier way to do this.
Tomorrow is a new day though and I WILL meet my goal.
Have a good night everyone!
Spanking Haiku
1 day ago
Misty: No don't sneak. It will have a negative ripple effect on your relationship. But if you do sneak, confess quickly. Although it may have a negative effect on your bottom, it will have a positive effect on your effort AND your relationship. The positive effect on your relationship (and your sense of accomplishment AND integrity to confess) is part of what fills the huge hole left by smoking.
ReplyDeleteHopefully Shannon is responding according to whatever agreement you have made.
This is a difficult struggle. But even having a 'two left over day' sometimes is an improvement. Big picture: you should be proud of this accomplishment and your continued effort.
I know I'm proud of you!
Misty,
ReplyDeleteI so get the need to ingest as much nicotine as you can get away with, even as you profess your unwavering desire to quit. I asked my husband to help me quit, and then desperately searched for opportunities to go behind his back. It doesn't make sense, and yet you and I understand it, don't we? Lying, cheating, sneaking around will not only cause you to remain addicted, but will cause a rift between you and Shannon. Fight the good fight. We're pulling for you.
SugarAnne
Yes, we're all pulling for you, Misty. Hang in there. Don't give in to temptation. Fight it! We believe in you. Believe in yourself. You can do this. (And if you do mess up, confess right away. Shannon is still going to love you and believe in you, even as he sets your tail on fire.)
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Alex
Thank you BabyMan.I won't sneak it's just tempting sometimes.Yes,Shannon is sticking to our agreement...that's why the sneaking is so tempting;)
ReplyDeleteSugaranne,I don't want to cause a rift between us that's for sure.I think the hardest part of this is being honest..honest with myself and honest with him.Thank you for understanding and pulling for me.:)
Alex,Thanks and thanks for that last part I'll try an remember that;)
Hugggs,
Misty
The "I will" part is what you have to remember next time. Next time you feel like smoking come up to this page and read your determination.
ReplyDeleteYou just made a promise to yourself.
Keep that :)